I'm reaching this point of fatigue this week. I guess it all stems from feeling fairly overwhelmed. After my week of highs and lows last week, and learning how I have to appreciate life for what it is, I'm just wearing myself too thin I think.

That's pretty much what I've always done. I have parents who taught me to be an overachiever (doing my best means doing everything my best), which isn't all bad, but sometimes wears me out. I have the ability to get the things done I need to, but I'm sort of stressing out about it all. I really hate that I do my best work under pressure sometimes.

I keep mentioning Saranam Sunday, but it is finally upon us. Sunday morning I'm ringleader of the circus entitled Saranam Sunday. I've had to make some changes this week, seeing as how I'm out a director and a volunteer backed out on me, and my families seem to be utterly unreliable, but I think that it is all going to work out. I've fought battle after battle about t-shirts, I still have other pieces of my job that have to get done on top of planning 3 worship services for Sunday. I've been able to delegate some work, but honestly am still feeling overwhelmed by it all.

I'm not someone who cries a lot, in fact I usually have trouble crying if I want to. I've had a couple of times this week where I know it would be good for my soul to just cry, but I can't bring myself to. It is honestly kind of frustrating, and I think I just need to rent the movie Beaches or something and maybe I can cry.

I have faith that Sunday will go well, but I guess that doesn't keep me from being nervous about it in the meantime. I know I'll have plenty of people praying for me, and a God that is greater than I can even imagine is really running the show.

In any case, since writing is therapeautic for me, I've got a post about charge conference forthcoming. Sometimes I am too nerdy Methodist for my own good.

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